"East To West"
Here I am, Lord, and I'm drowning in your sea of forgetfulness
The chains of yesterday surround me
I yearn for peace and rest
I don't want to end up where You found me
And it echoes in my mind, keeps me awake tonight
I know You've cast my sin as far as the east is from the west
And I stand before You now as though I've never sinned
But today I feel like I'm just one mistake away from You leaving me this way
Jesus, can You show me just how far the east is from the west
'cause I can't bear to see the man I've been come rising up in me again
In the arms of Your mercy I find rest
'cause You know just how far the east is from the west
From one scarred hand to the other
I start the day, the war begins, endless reminding of my sin
Time and time again Your truth is drowned out by the storm I'm in
Today I feel like I'm just one mistake away from You leaving me this way
I know You've washed me white, turned my darkness into light
I need Your peace to get me through, to get me through this night
I can't live by what I feel, but by the truth Your word reveals
I'm not holding on to You, but You're holding on to me
You're holding on to me
Jesus, You know just how far the east is from the west
I don't have to see the man I've been come rising up in me again
In the arms of Your mercy I find rest
'cause You know just how far the east is from the west
From one scarred hand to the other
One scarred hand to the other
From one scarred hand to the other
The chains of yesterday surround me
I yearn for peace and rest
I don't want to end up where You found me
And it echoes in my mind, keeps me awake tonight
I know You've cast my sin as far as the east is from the west
And I stand before You now as though I've never sinned
But today I feel like I'm just one mistake away from You leaving me this way
Jesus, can You show me just how far the east is from the west
'cause I can't bear to see the man I've been come rising up in me again
In the arms of Your mercy I find rest
'cause You know just how far the east is from the west
From one scarred hand to the other
I start the day, the war begins, endless reminding of my sin
Time and time again Your truth is drowned out by the storm I'm in
Today I feel like I'm just one mistake away from You leaving me this way
I know You've washed me white, turned my darkness into light
I need Your peace to get me through, to get me through this night
I can't live by what I feel, but by the truth Your word reveals
I'm not holding on to You, but You're holding on to me
You're holding on to me
Jesus, You know just how far the east is from the west
I don't have to see the man I've been come rising up in me again
In the arms of Your mercy I find rest
'cause You know just how far the east is from the west
From one scarred hand to the other
One scarred hand to the other
From one scarred hand to the other
About three or four years ago, I found myself losing my faith in God. Faith has always been extremely important to me but at this point in my life I was straying off the path. I losing three people, two of which I was deeply attached to in my heart. I had been in a very controlling, immature relationship with a boy I was dating at the time for almost two years. My family decided that enough was enough and they broke us up. Besides my rebellious attitude and 'depression' I was going through, that was not the worst of my problems. I grew up in the same house as my two oldest cousins. The oldest of the two was my dearest cousin. She was my role model and I grew up wanting to be just like her. I loved her so much. At the same time as my little break-up, I started losing her little by little to drugs. To top things off, my great grandmother, who had always been my best friend and we did everything together. We even slept in the same bed. She passed away august 2009. All of these factors contributed to me losing my faith in God. This song help me start to come back to God. My mother showed it to me and it has helped me when I get down ever since. It is a reminder that God is always there for everyone and straying away from him does no good.
I love this song. Casting Crowns is an amazing band. I understand the feeling of having a boyfriend who does not appreciate you and treats you wrong as well as living with cousins and losing family members who are close to you. I have experienced all three and have learned that life goes on and to just pick yourself up and to keep your memories and to keep going. I know it sounds harsh, but I've learned it's the best advice.
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